My Life

last time i checked…

i was down,

lost 6 kilos

and can not use my brain in 6 days …

i felt it again …

still it hurts .. havent got any clue yet how to overcome this circumstance

i am relenting myself …

its better off this way ..

people told me to hold on a bit ..

doesnt affect me much, coz iam still focusing my power using the whole internal feelings..

i always trust my feelings , i work with it.

i believe in something big will happen when u had a soul in everything u do.

time , is all i dont have …

i regret this circumstance ever happen

but, i want u to know .. i am so happy when you are around.

= abang =

when i say , i miss you …

I MEAN IT …

i had the crush

i am not intend to rush

i am going to run for a while …

no more hurry …

i’ll be smooth this time …

though the rush inside still haunting …

will you wait ?

you were right adek

i did spend too much time at the office …

guess i am starting to forget how fun playing it was ..

those are not my time , fine

try to follow as i could , miss several moments, fine

catch up later … i will have those fun … as much as i could

two years to come … fun shall be mine …

enrico ( sunday evenin, Des 8th 2008 )

Anything …

as you pleased

remind me , shock me , enlight me

Come what may … whatever you choose for me, mi Lord.

Another topic has been launched. We keep on arguing each other about how far could we go in order to chase our soulmate.

dear lovely friend,

glad knowing you are there

your glowing inner shines the deepest dark hollow inside

what you’ve been doing somehow create a struggle inside me

we had a time , when our eyes meet on the first time

i like you ever since

then, people come and go

still, you are there …

i had you as a friend , felt like i know you for a long time

i had you in one of my dreams, felt like i am adoring someone in a secret way

i did feel my comfort around you

i did feel joy when i am with you

May He bless you in everything you do

May He bless you, so you can always do right in everything you decide

May He bless you , so you can find your true happiness

and thank you for stopping by …

when you do your last self talk ?
when all look so blur
you don’t even realize what you have been fighting for

since when ?
all came so suddenly
when all laughter heard so loud in your ear
you felt so lonely
you felt there’s nothing left for you

you used to be so ON FIRE
you used to be outstanding
you used to have full of genius ideas, even your mates admit that
you used to have an endless spirit, even your mates admit that
you used to have an excessive power to live you life

now, you need something to remind your purpose in your life
do the SELF Talk
get out quickly From your own shadow
notice that, you are here for some reasons … to love, to care,
to create ,
last but not least, to find a good reason to fight …
one damn good reason.

I’m starting to fashion an idea in my head
where I would impress you
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming
and you’d want to call me
And I would be there every time
you’d need me
I’d be there every time…
But for now I’ll look so longingly
waiting…
For you to want me, for you need me, for you to notice me

- Dashboard Confessional -

believe in hard work 

even when it comes about love 

new things comin’ up 

True love (and even Trust) are something that you cannot even feel on the first sight. True love is something that you found when you hold her hands on her dying breath. 

you will never know … till that time comes

words taken from: 

someone who spend life with his wife , thru a lot fighting for her love, no kids, living in unmodernized envi, but still found his own happiness.

Puncak, sept 30 2008 2:19 am

Why do i have lack of sureness ?

What did i miss ? 

What lesson should i learn ?