girl : hiii, havent seen ur face for sometimes. … ?, udah mulai sombong y? ga pernah nelpon lagi ?
me : ok ? maybe i have been busy … ( damn i miss u so much … just hug u so tight might cast my burden away )
me : how about a date ? feel wanna watch some movie ? or just seeing each other ?
girl : but its quite so late … i wanna take an early nap ..
me : thats ok ( God!, do u really changed ? how come theres no one call u for some God damn party ? )
girl : maybe 2morrow ?
me : ok …. ( so cold …. but inside : HIP HIP HOREEEEEEEE , i got a date, i got a date… date..date…date .heuheuheehuheueh with a beautiful one i got a date … hehehhe )
girl : ok see u then … bubyeee
the day after …
me : hi … feel wonderful 2day ? how about 2night ? shall we go out ?
girl : hmm … eghhh … i cant promise u anything … but we’ll see ok ?
me : ok .. i will still call u after the working hours to chech ur availability ok ? hope u’ve got much time … ( still wanna convince u girl … coz i miss u too much )
girl : ok
after a long hursh , hard time working … been complaining by many people , clumbsy secretary, working alone, been pushed by my former supervisor ….
me : hi , girl … what’s up ? how about 2day .. ? shall we go out ?
girl : aduh … lagi jalan2 ama adikku …. gpp yah ? tapi kita ngobrol aja deh di telepon …
me : ough … sorry i am using company’s phone … i am affraid it will showed up on my bills
girl : udah telepon2an aja …
me : shall we go to the movie ?
girl : rame2 aja yah ? ajak temen2 ku ?
me : terserah deh … yg penting have fun …
girl : ehhh udah dulu y? ntar telepon lagi …
15 minutes later … after sleeping on my desk …
me : ehh gimana ? jadi ?
girl : minggu depan aja y? gpp y?
me : ok ( God … how come it felt so hurt … )
girl : can u call me now ?
me : i am hurt … i cant take it … please do me a favor … leave me alone a little while ok ? i’ll get back to u later ok ? please be patient with me …
{ di kelilingi ama anak buah rekanan … di sebelah ada sekretaris … i guess i start to drop a little tears … }
fight it rico … fight it … fight it God damn it … u are so weak … God damn .. dont quit on me ..
.…………………… Still … i cried … pretend that i am not … i starring constantly 2 my laptops so they wont see my eyes ………………………….. last time i checked … when facing this kind of situation .. i ran … i take my running shoe and start running at midnight in the park … when i had got tired enough, i start to punch those tree … hopes the pain will ease the hurt …. guess i am not that kind of man anymore …
am I ???