Once He gave me the luxury of temptation. I realized now, His basic idea was, If I passed those tests, then i would have the Grand Prize. I have tasted the temptation, it was good i guess. Thrilling, enjoying, hilarious, goosebumped, …

Now, its gone. When i feel like to come over to Him once more, and ask about feeling the Grace of being in … , I couldnt. that’s because of i could not stand in front of Him and speak to Him like i used to be, and tell : "dear …. i really do want to know her … "

gooss, if i could turn back the time …